Tuesday, January 29, 2013

My Pensive Heart: Sassie's Prayer

My Pensive Heart: Sassie's Prayer: I needed to blog about something so sweet.  First, I know there are some of you that know about my precious little Sassie.  She is a black a...

Sassie's Prayer

I needed to blog about something so sweet.  First, I know there are some of you that know about my precious little Sassie.  She is a black and white long haired rat terrier mix.  We rescued her when she was about 3 years old and she as been the most precious pup anyone could have.  God blessed her in our lives.  There were 2 things that were precious to Sassie and that was her stuffed dog "Baby" and her love for music.  Especially the Phantom of the Opera and Christmas music.  I'mnot talking about instrumental music....but people that sing.  She loved singing!!!  We would have the hardest time listening to the TV if someone was singing a song she liked cause she had to sing along and sing she would as loud as she could.

Well Sassie is coming up in years and she is now  arthritic and blind. She's been doing very well until these past couple of weeks.  I think she has become more aware of her blindness because it has made her extremely restless.  I believe she has a bit of Alzheimer's too.  She has developed this whining to barking thing and litterally driving us mad.  I had been up all night with her due to her  relestlessness and whining.   Not really sure what she is needing.  It has been very frustrating, and sad trying to figure out what she wants.  I figured out some of the whining issues being she hungry, needs to "go", or she has cornered hereself in remote parts of the house.  But it's those times when I have no clue "WHAT?".  I've tried keeping her in a play pen that helps to some extent.  My patience has been running on thin ice with her.

Last night she was in one of her whiny moods and extremely restless.  I'm thinking, "GREAT I need some sleep and I can't go another night of this."  I gather her up in my arms and rocked her trying to calm her down.  And then I remember how much she loved her music and started singing the Lord's Prayer.  I sang it low in her ears as I cuddled and rocked her and the most amazing thing happened.  She started trying to sing with me.  OMG!!!  She was singing again....her little raspy voice straining to help me sing.....After the song, she relaxed and I said to her, "Baby we've said our prayers it's night, night time".  I placed her in her bed and there was no whimper, whine or restlessness at all.  NONE!!  I woke this morning realizing she and I had slept all night.  Even now, I fed her breakfast and she is content and happy on her pallet next me in my office.  Not one whimper, not one fussiness but PEACE.  WOW!!! Is God amazing or what?  Oh but that sweet voice of her's last night singing again.  Something I haven't heard her do in a really long time.  So precious...She loves God too!!

Dear God,
Thank you BLESSED FATHER, for a sweet night and such a peaceful morning.  Thank you for loving my little Sas and giving her a peaceful night.  Thank you Father for her gift of song, I had forgotten how she loved to sing.  Last night was such a sweet treat.  Thank you is all I can say....Thank you....In Jesus name I pray.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

My Pensive Heart: Day 5 - Waiting to be Found

My Pensive Heart: Day 5 - Waiting to be Found: http://sanctuaryofwomen.com/womenschristmasretreat2013.html     Man O Man!!! I wish I could share all the response to everyone that ...

Day 5 - Waiting to be Found


 
 
Man O Man!!! I wish I could share all the response to everyone that reads my blog of all the women that are participating the email retreat going on.  Lots of wonderful entries.  Enjoy each one so much.  It amazes me all the different view points and journeys that everyone experiences or sees.
 
Today is about dreams - Questions are given as follows:
Are there images, motifs, story lines that recur in your dreams? What invitation might this hold for you? Is there a journey waiting for you in your own neighborhood—the place where you are right now; some treasure that waits to be found by entering the familiar in a new way?

God has given me several dreams that I believe were given at certain times of my life but was a puzzle to the reality of the journey God wanted me to take that I'm just now seeing....I'm a late bloomer...God sometimes has to hit me over the head for me to GET IT!!! And did back in October.

Several years ago, God gave me a dream where Jesus and God was there in a mist of a war and I was in a fox hole trying to steer away from the bombs bursting around me.  Jesus was standing above me and God was shining brightly behind Him and Jesus said to me...."You, Ava, know the secrets.  And you know what you need to do with them.  Go tell it to the world."  Well, I woke up in awe because that was the very first time I've EVER dreamed of Jesus or God much less of them BOTH in the same dream....I went to my ESword Bible program and entered in the word "secret" and pull every scripture with that word or the word "mystery" and wrote them down.  Basically meant was just share God, Jesus and God's word to others.

I love God's word so sharing to others is not a problem....YAY!! That's easy.  Then another dream came:

I dreamed of me being in a large room that was divided into sections.  Each section was a room but there was nothing in any of the rooms but one.   I remember one section of the room was filled with all kinds of canvas, pencils, colors, books, paint, brushes every tool you can imagine to create anything and everything that could be created was in this small little room.  I just remembering how neat that room was...It was just all about me....CREATIVE.....I felt I could just live in that room....then I was veered to a very large room where there was an argument going on about moving a wall and the cost of it being moved and how it was going to be painted or covered.  Then a bunch of us were sitting around a table fixing to each lunch and we got to talking about God and I was being teased about my faith.  I remember someone asking me about my faith and if I really believed and I told him at another time, I could tell him stories that would make him believe.  That was the end of that dream...which to me meant that God has so many doors and sections of life that I haven't even tapped into and I just need to use my God given CREATIVITY to tap in the secrets He has planned for me.

Well a few months later....I was laid off.  I do believe that dream was telling me something is down the road.  Now a lot  of other coincidences (God thing) has happen and brought me to establishing my own agency.  I believe God has veered me down this journey...too many open doors that make me not believe.  And to think this reality  of my own business is right here in my own home and in a business that I've been in for 37 years and never dreamed of doing it on my own.

Dreams are powerful....don't ignore them...when I can remember a dream...I write it down because I feel God is trying to tell me something.

I have a recurring person in a dream I'm struggling with now and not sure what it means but I'm sure one day I will figure it out.

My Pensive Heart: Day 4 - Maps

My Pensive Heart: Day 4 - Maps: http://sanctuaryofwomen.com/womenschristmasretreat2013.html I'm so touched by all of the responses each email I read.  When I was on the c...

Day 4 - Maps

http://sanctuaryofwomen.com/womenschristmasretreat2013.html

I'm so touched by all of the responses each email I read.  When I was on the computer today, there was a wrinkle advertisement and showed a wrinkled up pair of hands and the advertisement said something to the fact that if you don't take care of your skin your skin would look like the hands in the photo.   It was after reading all the post for the day which made me so aware of hands.  I looked at that advertisement photo of the hands and if just reminded me a grandmother hands.  It didn't look bad to me.  They looked kind, loving...just because they are all gnarled and withered looking doesn't mean they are ugly as the advertisement tried to imply.

My hands have become exactly like my mother's hands.  I look at them on occasion and realize how I look like and aging just like my mother.  I have same wrinkles, the same bulging knuckles and the same textured fingernails.  I sometimes look in the mirror and see my mother all the time.

My hands have held my son at birth to a hug and brush through hair of the man that he has become.  My hands have carried food and dishes at a restaurant.  Cooked many a meals for my family.  Crafted gifts galore for friends and family.  Painted with brushes, canvas, to a digital pad to create my fantasies on a computer screen.   My hands have typed on typewriters to the 22nd century computers and smart phones.  From past to present my hands have been busy, writing, typing my thoughts, from negative hatred to positive love of God.  Through my hands of writing and typing I found God. 

Now dreaming of the future, I pray to be able to hold a grandchild and if it is the will of God, perhaps several grandchildren or GREAT grandchildren.   To be able hold and read to them from God's word with even more gnarled and withered hands brushing along the pages as my dear grandchildren listen and watch my hands tell His story.  Praying they will remember the love in my own hands.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

My Pensive Heart: Day 3 For Those Who Have Far to Travel

My Pensive Heart: Day 3 For Those Who Have Far to Travel: http://sanctuaryofwomen.com/womenschristmasretreat2013.html Page 8 and 9 The poem "An Epiphany Blessing" Wow!! Beautiful poem.....I wi...

Day 3 For Those Who Have Far to Travel

http://sanctuaryofwomen.com/womenschristmasretreat2013.html

Page 8 and 9

The poem "An Epiphany Blessing"

Wow!! Beautiful poem.....I wish I could write like this!!!  I love the stanza:
 
There are vows
that only you
will know;
the secret promises
for your particular path
and the new ones
you will need to make
when the road
is revealed
by turns
you could not
have foreseen.

My life has taken so many turns and God has promised me so many blessings.  Over the years I finally have gotten to a point that I'm so aware of God being around me.  I do not go a day where I do not feel God's presence.  Several years ago, God gave me a dream and in the dream was the word "secret" (the reason for me to zero in on this stanza).  Everytime I come across the word "secret" I have to stop and think about my dream.  This is my promise of God ...this word "secret".  This stanza is so much talking to me at this particular time in my 2013 life's journey with God.  I see and remember where I came from and I'm excited for the road ahead.  BUT....I'm taking each moment at a time and living it the best in that moment as I can and hopefully by God standards.  I try not  to worry about the future or tomorrow.....I have enough to worry about today at this moment.

Monday, January 7, 2013

My Pensive Heart: Day 2 - Setting Out

My Pensive Heart: Day 2 - Setting Out: Message from Pastor Cheryl Smith: Good morning, ladies! I was excited to get to the computer and connect with all of you this morning. W...

Day 2 - Setting Out

Message from Pastor Cheryl Smith:
Good morning, ladies! I was excited to get to the computer and connect with all of you this morning. Whatever the significant differences between women and men, it is obvious that we understand "connection" in a different way. Our way might not be better or worse than men's way, but it is quite different, and I know for sure that we do ourselves no favors when we neglect our need to be in relationship with other women. This is a new kind of relating for us--an email conversation with women who we (mostly) don't know, and yet who share a desire to experience some piece of the sacred journey together.
It's Monday, and we are alll back to whatever schedules demand our lives, but it's Monday together. . . . . .it's good to be walking the same path with you all.
Today, let's read and reflect on pages 6 and 7. And may the blessing be before you ALL DAY LONG!
 
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I'm a bit behind here but here is day 2 of our Women's Christmas Retreat........
 
Quote
"every pilgrimage shrine is an archetype of the sacred centre"
 
DEFINITIONS
 
SHRINE
1. a building or other shelter, often of a stately or sumptuous character, enclosing the remains or relics of a saint or other holy person and forming an object of religious veneration and pilgrimage.
2. any place or object hallowed by its history or associations: a historic shrine. 
3. any structure or place consecrated or devoted to some saint, holy person, or deity, as an altar, chapel, church, or temple.
4. a receptacle for sacred relics; a reliquary.
 
PILGRIMAGE
 1. a journey, especially a long one, made to some sacred place as an act of religious devotion: a pilgrimage to Lourdes.
2. any long journey, especially one undertaken as a quest or for a votive purpose, as to pay homage
 
ARCHETYPE
1. the original pattern or model from which all things of the same kind are copied or on which they are based; a model or first form; prototype.
2. (in Jungian psychology) a collectively inherited unconscious idea, pattern of thought, image, etc., universally present in individual psyches.
 
We all have some type of sacred pilgrimage that we take from a pattern or thought I feel is our gift from God that he wants to share with us.  It's that pilgrimage that we individually need to journey.  It's this journey that we need to make ourselves with God. 
 
Questions:
Have you ever taken a trip that began as a dream, an imagining, a moment of illuminations?  I'm taking that trip now....a dream of having my own business.  A dream that I have wanted for years but never could figure out "What business?"  Now I know!!! 
 
What inspired you to set out?  God gave me a business plan in scripture that put the thought in my head.  I knew then what I needed to do.  A few months later, I prayed one morning dreading going to work and put my job in his hands to advise me what I needed to do....that very afternoon ....I was laid off  ...I knew God has a plan
 
Is there a pilgrimage you long to make?  Having my own business and now it is in place and all I have to do is journey through the process.
 
What would it take for you to go?  God made that decision for me and I'm on my way.  Buisness is in place...I just need to find my customers.  That is my journey to use the business that God gave me and work it for Him.
 
 
 
 

My Pensive Heart: ONLINE WOMEN'S RETREAT

My Pensive Heart: ONLINE WOMEN'S RETREAT: http://sanctuaryofwomen.com/womenschristmasretreat2013.html I received an email from a really good friend advising that one of her past pa...

PRELUDE - Day 1 - My response

DEFINITION

e·piph·a·ny

[ih-pif-uh-nee] Show IPA
noun, plural e·piph·a·nies.
1. ( initial capital letter ) a Christian festival, observed on January 6, commemorating the manifestation of Christ to the gentiles in the persons of the Magi; Twelfth-day.
2.an appearance or manifestation, especially of a deity.
3. a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.
4. a literary work or section of a work presenting, usually symbolically, such a moment of revelation and insight.
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I love looking up word definitions. It makes me look deeper into the meanings in writings and especially the bible. It helps me interpret what God wants me to see. Through journelling, is my way how I talk with God every morning. In looking up the word EPIPHANY!!! I now understand the process of this whole retreat. As there is never any coincidences.....this retreat is exactly what I'm needing. I've already figured that 2013 is definitely a year for CHANGE!!! It will be a wonderful journey....
I have a blog that pretty much summed up what my 2012 was and what hopes I have for 2013. You are more than welcome to read....Infact I would like so much to share this process on my blog.
Looking so forward to this process. Thanks Carol for sharing this with me!!! You know me so well and knew this retreat is up my alley!!! Thank you Cheryl for adding me to the list.

ONLINE WOMEN'S RETREAT

http://sanctuaryofwomen.com/womenschristmasretreat2013.html

I received an email from a really good friend advising that one of her past pastors decided to do an online women's retreat.  So I've decided to share this with my friends online and anyone who would like to participate, please do

The above link is the booklet study for this retreat.  Here are the instructions....mind you I'm doing this by email, but I'm sharing through my blog to get more women interested in "The Map You Make Yourself"  by Jan L. Richardson.  I hope you join in with your thoughts and insights.  I will post Cheryl's instructions when I recieve on a daily basis.  This should have been started yesterday so I'm a day behind in posting.

DIRECTIONS  ===================================================

"Who knew that when I got a whimsy of an idea on Friday to invite some women friends to journey through an on-line gathering with me that we would end up today with 58 women sharing the journey! You told your friends and they told their friends, and so it is that we begin this on-line pilgrimage together. Who but God knows where it will go!
I had originallly thought that I could cut and paste and send out a daily dispatch, but Jan Richardson's PDF files have eluded my ability to do that. So, I am sending you the link that will take you to the download of her retreat. http://sanctuaryofwomen.com/womenschristmasretreat2013.html We will read and comment on a portion of the retreat every day, and I will send out a reminder, but, alas, you will have to be responsible for downloading it yourself.
When you want to reflect on the reading, please "Reply All" since the whole gift of this retreat is that we do it together . . . learning from each other, listening, talking, reflecting, being changed. Since there are so many of us, let's keep our reflections brief. It may be that you want to comment not only on Jan's writings, but also on each other's, and that will be delightful. In all cases, "Reply All."
It may be that the only downside of this experience is that our in boxes wlll be overflowing for the next two weeks. Most of us have learned how to cope with that through Facebook--if you have time you read them and if you don't, you don't. This "retreat" will be the most low-maintenance thing you do all month, but it may be one of the most enriching things you do all month.
Some people are more verbal than others. Feel free to just listen if that's what you are led to do, but obviously there will be no benefit if everybody is a listener and no one shares. I am officially not in charge of that, and gladly relinquish all worry and control over who posts and who doesn't to God who, no doubt, is more excited than we are for the possibility of the woman-connection we are about to enjoy.
So, with the guidelines established, (Wow--that was simple!) let us begin. Today's reading is longer than any other day's Please rad pages 1-5: The Prelude. And may we, at least in spirit, pull up a pillow, get a hot cup of tea and settle in for a wonderful Women's Christmas!
Cheryl "
 
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Ladies have fun on this journey and looking forward to your responses.
 
 

Thursday, January 3, 2013

My Pensive Heart: HIS SHIELD AROUND ME

My Pensive Heart: HIS SHIELD AROUND ME: Scripture Reading:  Psalm 3:1-8 Today's Scripture:  Psalm 3:3 But you, O Lord, are a shield around me; you are my glory, the one who ho...

HIS SHIELD AROUND ME

Scripture Reading:  Psalm 3:1-8

Today's Scripture:  Psalm 3:3
But you, O Lord, are a shield around me;
you are my glory, the one who
holds my head high.

This verse today gives me such comfort to know that I'm surrounded by God.  He is the one that holds me up, holds my head high and knowing that I can do anything.  I know there are those that feel this new business venture will fail.  I've already heard through the grapevine, that I will drive myself and my family into the poor house.  I get so tired of the negativity of others trying hard to pull me down.  All my life, I've been taught I can't do anything.  But year after year, I fight to prove that I can do anything when I put my mind to it.  Sometimes, I feel I'm getting to old to fight anymore and just want to give up and be reserved to the fact....they are right...I can't do it.

But this morning, God shows me a scripture giving me hope that, YES, I can do it as long as I have God surrounding me with his glory and He alone holds my head high.  Without God, yes I can do nothing......BUT I'm not without Him.....He is here, helping me every step of my life, my adventures, and my talents.  I CAN DO THIS AND NO ONE CAN TELL ME OTHERWISE.  I refuse to listen to others, I will only listen to what MY GOD has to say to me.

I know I'm not perfect....I know I've failed in so many things in my life....I know I'm a sinner but God loves my anyway and I know if I ask for forgiveness, for help I will someday become perfect in His eyes and His eyes alone.

PRAYER
My dear precious Lord, HOLD MY HEAD HIGH, I cannot do anything without you in my life.  Only through you all things are possible.  Even starting this business.  Keep me directed, keep me solid, keep me focused on you through this process.  In the mighty name of Jesus.....I love you....Amen.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

My Pensive Heart: Happy New 2013!!!

My Pensive Heart: Happy New 2013!!!: SCRIPTURE:  Leviticus 19:13-25 When you ent the land and plant any kind of fruit tree, regard its fruit as forbidden For three years you a...

Happy New 2013!!!

SCRIPTURE:  Leviticus 19:13-25
When you ent the land and plant any kind of fruit tree, regard its fruit as forbidden
For three years you are to consider it forbidden; it must not be eaten.
In the fourth year all it's fruit will be holy, an offering of praise to the Lord.
But in the fifth year you may eat it's fruit.
In this way your harvest will be increased.
I am the LORD you God

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I want to take this time to wish everyone a Happy and Bless New Year!!!  I'm so excited that 2013 is finally here.  As some of you know I have started my own insurance agency and looking forward to a prosperus year!!.  My son will be working with me....he will be obtaining his license in a couple of weeks and the work will begin. 

The year 2012 has been an interesting year.  It has been very stressful,  and discouraging but God has ended my year given me great hope.  He shut a door on me being layed off only to bust open another one for me to enter starting my own business.  The process was so much easier than I thought it would be.  And the support from my colleagues has been totally amazing that I tear up everytime I think about the process.  I want to thank everyone who has supported me in this decision. 

The purpose for the scripture today was given to me last summer before I was layed off during a 90day reading of the Bible with my church and it gave me my vision for my new venture. God's business plan for my agency. I have it framed and will be the heart of ARB Insurance Agency (Almighty's Rich Blessings).  Can't get any better than that!!!

Someone on Facebook posted the following resolution and thought it very appropriate to start my New Year:

5 RESOLUTIONS FOR DISCOVERING AND LIVING YOUR CALLING

1)  Take a fresh look at your God-Given Design
2)  Stretch the boundaries of your comfort zone
3)  Look for needs you can meet each day
4)  Develop "An Attitude of Graditude"
5)  Start today taking prayerful action

I loved this......It fits my daily task of starting and ending each day!!!  I challenge everyone out there to do the same.  Item 2 will be a big one for me....STRETCHING OUT MY COMFORT ZONE!!!  But with God's help, I can do this!!!

PRAYER
Dear Bless Father,
Happy New Year to you!!!  Thank you for allowing me to see a New Year with a new beginning, a new hope and an exciting adventure of a new life.  I dedicate ARB Insurance Agency into your hands and thank you for the gift that you have entrusted to me and my family. We will make you proud and do what is right in your eyes. We will honor you with whatever blessings that you nuture through us. We will bless our customers with how Jesus would have done.  Each day  this agency will lift you up in praise.  In the name of Jesus......AMEN!!!