GOD SENT ME AN ANGEL

SCRIPTURES
He ordered his angels
to guard you wherever you go.
If you stumble, they'll catch you;
their job is to keep you from falling.
You'll walk unharmed among lions and snakes,
and kick young lions and serpents from the path
(Palms 91:11-13)

I believe in angels.....God finally sent me an angel from Heaven.  Today I was having a very stressful day, mentally, physically and emotionally.  I had to get out of the office because I felt that I was just losing it....you know what I mean...the kind that the screaming meemees were going to surface.  I decided I wanted to go to my favorite restaurant.  It was closed of all days due to some catering thing that they were doing.  I was so disappointed.  I came out of the parking lot and pulled out without looking to the left and almost hit the lady or the lady almost hit me....but anyway it would have been my fault.  I felt terrible...And of course the woman was a bit shook up too.  That did it...The tears were choking in my throat.  I still had to come up with some lunch and decided I would head over to Subway.  On my way to subway I saw CVS and thought "Soup" sounded good and realized there was an HEB next door.  So I turned in to HEB and went into the store.  A store I really didn't know and of course knew nothing about where to find soup.  Still with lumps in my throat, I heard a voice, "You sure look pretty today"...the voice startled me because this was a thought that crossed my mind before I left for lunch...thinking how ugly I felt and looked.  I turned toward the voice and saw the sweetest old lady about 4'9' in a pretty pink blouse and she looked at me and I said "Who Me?" and she said "Yes!  I think you look so pretty.  I love your outfit"  I just threw my arms around that woman and started crying and said..."Awww thank you!!!...If you knew how much this meant to me because I feel so bad...thank you so much"  I just hugged her and she hugged back and perceded to talk about my white crochetted sweater.  God knew what I needed and he gave me that sweet little angel.  A grandmother type...I just bawled and squalled that God was thinking of me today and knew I needed his embrace.

PRAYER
Oh Dear Heavenly Father....thank you so much for your embrace and being there when I needed your hug.  I can't thank you enough.  I so much love you Lord....I'm speechless,even as I go back in rememberance of an hour ago...Thank you again... Jesus name I pray....Amen

FORTY DAYS OF LOVE

DAY 1 - ASH WEDNESDAY

SCRIPTURE
But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation

God's unfailing love rejoices when we seek his salvation.  This Ash Wednesday night, I kneel at the alter answering the pastor's question as she marks my head with ashes "Do you repent of your sins and start following Christ?" I answer "Yes"...renewing my vows of my salvation.  I sit here thinking about my answer to that question and realizing the importance of this question.  My brain said yes but my heart worries if I can stand up to this promise.  It seems that I constantly try to be a better Christian and seem to fail unmerciful.  But due to God's unfailing love and forgiveness he doesn't give up when I fail.  I often wonder why he even tries to keep me in his mist.   Oh but I'm so thankful that he does.

PRAYER
Dear God, I do trust in your unfailing love.  I'm so ever thankful for you forgiveness.  As I start this Lent season, help me walk in your salvation and love so that I can be the christian you want me to be.  In Jesus name I pray....AMEN

PROVERBS 4:20-27

My child, pay attention to what I say.  Listen carefully to my words.  Don't lose sight of them.  Leet them penetrate deep into your heart, for they bring life to those who find them, and healing to their whole body.  Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life.  Avoid all perverse talk; stay away from corrupt speech.  Look straight ahead, and fix your eyes on what lies before you.  Mark out a straight path for your feet; stay on the safe path.  Don't get sidetracked; keep your feet from following  evil.

DEFINITIONS:
Guard -  watch over, defend, protect, prevent from escaping, take precautions, shield, watch, alert, lookout, guardian,




I think this scripture pretty much wraps up the WHOLE bible and what Jesus Christ is all about.  It sums it up in nice laid out verses.  I love the part it says "Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life".  This is so true...if you do not guard or protect the things of the heart, your life will go down a path that you do not wish to go.  Your path won't be straight and your eyes will not see what lies before you.  The heart controls.  Take Jesus there and guard it with your life.  The Holy Spirit will indwell in your heart and make you the person God wants you to be.

Psalms 19: 14

May the words of my mouth 
     and the meditation of my
         heart
be pleasing to you,
     O Lord, my rock and my
         redeemer

This is my prayer, Oh God,  I'm trying hard to get back into your word so that you again can speak to my heart.  I meditate on your words, chew them around and in hopes that you will  redeem what I'm learning.  I have so much to learn.  I'm still so young in my wisdom regarding you.  But I do know that you have revealed a lot in my my life time.  Keep on ...and please do not give up on me.  I  love and praise you Lord...Amen!!!

PROVERBS 4:11-13

I will teach you wisdom's ways and lead you in straight paths.  When you walk, you won't be held back; when you run, you won't stumble.  Take hold of my instructions; don't let them go.  Guard them, for they are the key to life.

God is talking to me today.  I'm really enjoying my reading with my ladies at work.  God is showing me that I can inspire even when my transgressions lurk into my existence.  God has a path, I know it.  I'm just that quite where he wants me to be at this time in my life. 

I've decided to read "One Year Bible for Women" with my co-workers.  Together we are trying to inspire each other in the word.  But I'm afraid I'm the one that's been given a gift.  God is talking to me again and I'm sure enjoying my conversations with him.  He's not giving up on me.  He's here for me, as long as I keep my focus He will not let me stumble and give me the confidence to run and not hold back who God wants me to be.  Not really sure what that is but I know he is polishing me!!

PRAYER:

Dear God, Bless you and PRAISE your holy name.  I know that I don't deserve all the gifts you have been given to me.  You have been gentle and loving as I continue my search for your will in my life.  I thank Lord, In Jesus name I pray....AMEN

Psalms 18:32-33

God arms me with strength,
      and he makes my way perfect
He makes me as surefooted 
      as a deer,
   enabling me to stand on
      mountain heights

This is so comforting to me.  Today I'm filled with anxiety and not really sure why.  I really feel God is making me deal with an issue in my life that constantly keep creeping in my life.  This scripture says "he makes my way perfect"....MY WAY? PERFECT?  OK time for my definitions ...I once defined "perfect" because I hated the word. But can't find my previous notes on this so I'm having to totally redo and redefine.

DEFINITION:

PERFECT  - polish, cultivate, improve, complete carry through, finished, whole
CULTIVATE - nurture, polish, promote, encourage, advance
ENCOURAGE - confidence, give courage, urge advise
IMPROVE - upgrade,, enhance, refine make better
ENHANCE - boost, upgrade, strengthen, increase
REFINE - purify, gracious, pure, clean polish
POLISH - become smoothe, refine, improve, accomplished, sparkle, gleam
SUREFOOTED  - never stumbling or making a mistake, confidence
ENABLE  - to make possible

God is telling me something here because this scripture is LEAPING literally off the page...never mind that it's in red..Hahaha!!! but it gives me comfort.  As long as I have GOD to give me strength, He will polish me into a confident person to handle or make anything possible.  Going through the definition process, the word polish was what spoke to me.  God is still polishing me and I will need his strength while going through this polishing process so that I can do or have confidence for any obstacle sent my way. 

Right now the biggest obstacle in my life is my lack of confidence.  My lack of confidence to get the things I want out of life, friends, family and love ones where I can find peace and joy.  Confidence where I feel I don't ALWAYS have to compromise ME as a person.  To be able to be ME and love ME the way God does.  God obviously has a plan for me that he is polishing me for because this obstacle is a BIG one for me!!  One that keeps pressing on me when I thought it was gone.  But it is back pressing down on me and this time I have to deal with it.  I can no longer put on a back burner.

Dear God,
With  your arms of strength, you will make my way perfect, surefooted to enable me to do anything for your perfect will.  Take your strength and lift me up so that I can do what you have set for me to do.  This way you can finish your polish of my life to give me your perfect gleam.  In Jesus name I pray....Amen